A few weeks ago I decided to start jogging. I've never been an athletic person, and post-baby 30 year-old lack of metabolism is not doing me any justice. I don't live a terribly unhealthy lifestyle, but I don't exercise as much as I should. I figured running would be a great way to get into shape.

Already I am getting discouraged.

I don't run a long distance yet. I just make lap around my block after the bus picks up Xander in the mornings. I don't have an opportunity any other time, so I try to make it quick. I need to be done before Gilbert leaves for work. I figure my lap is only about 1/4 of a mile. Sorry, American here. I have no idea what the kilometer equivalent is. :(

So. I can only run about half of that. To not sell my self THAT short, it is all uphill. By the time I stop to walk, it is downhill. I figured by this time that I would be able to run a little farther before having to stop. Nope. This morning I gave up earlier. It was cold. I was already tired, and my ankles are starting to hurt. I ran twice yesterday because Xander wanted to take a run after school, and my mom was in town and watched Linette for me.

Anyway. This is going all over the place. I don't think I have quite got to the point, yes?

I have not lost any weight. If anything, it seems I have gained a few. What? I am not a bad eater. I don't snack and I monitor my meal portions. I've been able to maintain the same weight for a year now. So why am I gaining and not losing? :(

My mom says it may be just because I am building muscle, and muscle weighs more than fat. She said I looked a bit slimmer, but this is my mom. She is probably just saying that to be nice.

Discouraged. But I am going to stick with it.

Out of random boredom, I decided to look back on my earliest LJ memories. Wow, it really puts things into perspective! It was really nice to go back and read about the tiniest details of past events and remember that I wasn't a complete fuck up in my early twenties. Oh, I WAS a fuck up, but not near as bad as I like to think I was. My life has come a long way since then.

Of course there were a lot of entries related to internet drama. >.< Some of it is very humorous in hindsight, but some of it is just sad. :/ Once again, my life has come a long way. I feel like reconnecting with old friends though. Maybe I'll do that soon. My courage levels tend to waver. ;)

I need to journal more. I forgot how therapeutic it is to write your thoughts down. I really would like to add a diary of some sort to my website, but I don't want to use a weblog script/format. I'll just hang out here until I find something I like.

Is there anyone still here? I was thinking of using the Dreamwidth account I registered years ago since LJ has been of questionable quality lately. Yet, I have years of memories on my journal here, so maybe I should stick with something that has outlasted the years. There isn't much around that was here 10 years ago. :o

♥ Candi

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